For how long?

Wednesday, January 16, 2008
For how long?
Current mood: bored
Ok, I have been changing the bandages and keepin' it clean. And frankly, this sucks. I don't want to do this anymore. The problem is......I'll be doing this for a while. Months. Stupid!!
I have been moving around much better. I sure sleep a lot. I am so tired. I think its because I don't do anything but sit around. That's nice and all, but... I, it's just dumb!! I don't have any energy to do anything. Oh BTW... my cleaning lady came yesterday! Love her! My house is clean. At least the lower floor. She will do the upstairs next week. I don't care, my room was clean and she did my dishes!!! Yahoo!!! A clean house always makes me feel better.
I go to the dr tomorrow. Again. I know he's going to say, "looks great, see you in a week". That's all he says. I'll prove it. Tomorrow.

OOOooooh!! Guess what I got???

Sunday, January 13, 2008
OOOoooh!! Guess what I got???
Current mood: blissful
You guessed it.....a cherry DR PEPPER!!!!! YUM!!!

Because he loves me~~

Saturday, January 12, 2008
Because he loves me!

Current mood: adored
I have never doubted Raymond's love for me. I know he has never doubted how much I love him. I have never been a tattoo fan. I'm sorry, but it's "white trash"!! And Raymond is covered in them. He's gotten them all even while we have been together. Shows how much I really hate them right? As he is in Tennesee this weekend, he went to John to get this tattoo. Now, I will NOT allow Raymond to tattoo my name on him. He has the girls names but NOT mine. At first, I felt like this was the same difference. But after seeing this and knowing that he and John put their hearts into it, I LOVE IT!! He sent this picture to me with the words "here it is, all for you. I love you!!!" How can I not love him? He has always been my hero. He is what every husband should strive to be. He is an example for every father. I love him. For more than 15 years now, I love him. I can't say it enough. I love him.

I did it!! I did it!!

Saturday January 12, 2008
I did it! I did it!
Current mood: nervous
OMG! I finally did it. I actually did it! I packed my own wounds (as the dr would say). And he would be proud of me. I was so afraid to do anything with it and afraid it would hurt. Nope. I did it! I did it! And it didn't hurt. I called Raymond right away. I am just so excited. Now maybe it won't get infected and it will heal right. Wow what a relief. Now let's just see if I can do it again tonight! Wish me luck!!

I can't.......

Friday, January 11, 2008
I can’t....
Current mood: weird
I couldn't do it. It made my stomach turn! I pulled out the gauze that the dr put in there and it was gross! AND, it was way up in there. The problem is that I can't see it. So, I can't. The dr says it's ok to just leave it as it is for a few days and then go back in or when Raymond gets home he can fix it. This sounds weird huh? I just hope it will be ok for 3 days. It's just gross.

What the.........?

Thursday, January 10, 2008
What the......?
Current mood: nauseated
As crazy as it sounds, it is. I went to the dr today and it was another beating!! NOW, I have to put a different dressing on my right side since it is healing differently. So I asked the Dr "is is going to hurt?" And he replies "No, it's not going to hurt me at all, but thanks for asking." Can you believe that guy???!!! Of course it's not gonna hurt him!!!! Duh! Well, it didn't hurt, but it was gross. I have to put gauze INSIDE the whole to "help it heal" what ever that means. I don't get it. The problem I have is....Raymond is in Nashville and my dr friend Lance is going to Thatcher this weekend. So I have to do it myself. It made me nausish(?) watching the dr put it in there.....grossssssssssssss! I have to do this TWICE A DAY!!!!! AAAHHAHHHAAAAAAHHHH!!! That's me screaming. I'll let you know if it is really that bad. Probably not. But I can always try for MORE sympathy. J/K Not really.

Oh, not today......

Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Oh, not today.....
Current mood: uncomfortable
I just don't feel good. That new medicine makes me dizzy. My chest hurts. I have a headache cuz Raymond won't go buy me a soda. He thinks we should get healthy and stop drinking soda. He's crazy. I need my caffiene. If any one comes to visit.... BRING ME A DIET DR PEPPER PLEEEEEEAAASEEE!!!!!! With a splash of cherry ! It's really been a week for me, I just can't get comfortable. But let me just say this...I have GREAT hair!! Ah HHHAAAAAHHHAAAHHAAHHHAAA!!! < That's me laughing...get it?!