Just ahead.....

Sunday, December 30, 2007
Just ahead.....
Current mood: sore
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Okay, OK! I have stepped a little ahead of myself. I have been so sore and uncomfortable. I just can't find the sweet spot. (In more ways than one). I can't sleep without something to help me ie. Ambien. I have been doing some arm exercises. That is hard. I have been better!! I'm a mess. I still have yet to start injections and I am happy about that. I am not looking forward to that. Anticipation is killin' me.!!
I'll get through this, I promise. I won't be doing much but I hear that is the way to do it, by doing nothin'. Okay......

Finally a perfect fit!

Saturday, December 29, 2007
Finally a perfect fit!
Ok, ever since I had the bandages removed, I have had to use 4x4 squares with neosporin on them to keep the incisions moist. I have to change it everyday. Well, my insurance pays for these special bras and camis that fit snug and are made for this situation. I am allowed 6 per year. First of all, it's great that insurance covers this. I even got prosthetic boobs!! It's awesome! Anyway, keeping these bandages on and in place has been a pain. My skin around the incisions is still numb. So taping them on is silly. I finally have been able to put on this perticular bra that is similar to a sports bra and it keeps the bandages in place. FINALLY! They didn't move all night or for this afternoon. I love it. They are staying covered and in place. SEe when I bend over, which isn't to often, but when I do, every thing feels like it's dropping into my throat and it hurts. Gravity sucks, upside down!! But with this bra on, it doesn't move as far and it doesn't hurt as much. Yeah!! It's really going well, now........

Clearly I'm blessed!

Friday, December 28, 2007
Clearly I’m blessed!
I don't see this as "lucky". I know it's because I am blessed. I know it's because I have yet to finish my duties here on Earth. The Lord has more things in store for me. He does know that this experience will only make me stronger. Even if it has nothing to do with strength. I have experienced a lot of pain in my life of 32 years. I know there's a reason. Hopefully it's so my children don't have to go through it. Let's pray for that!!
I have been feeling good. Still sore. I went to the Dr yesterday and he said that things are looking good. As far as the incisions go. There is a little fluid build up but it is okay. He said that that will go away on it's own. It will still be a couple of weeks before we start the injections for expansion. Then I will be back on the heavy dose of vicodin. I have been told by a few that that part is the worst of it. GREAT!! I will let you know.
Christmas was great this year. Let me just say this.......
My name is Kimberly Harris, I'm 32 years old and I AM a breast cancer survivor.......
That's why Christmas was great this year...........that and we got Hannah Montana tickets!!!!
Happy New Year

What a what?

Saturday, December 22, 2007
What a what?
I can't believe I have gotten my Christmas shopping done! You guys, Raymond has been awesome!! He has only worked a total of 28 hours all month!! He has been home or out shopping for me. I actually have done some shopping online and have been able to take some trips to walmart and the mall, but still only for a little trip. I am so happy with how I feel. I know that makes a difference in recovery. Optimistic!! How can I not be. I have nothing else left!! I just hope I can keep this up!!! We'll see.......stay tuned!

A New Look???

Thursday, December 20, 2007
A New Look???
Ok so thru this whole process I have been told that it will be a long slow haul towards getting back to what they call "Normal". I don't know, normal? I was hoping I would be better than that. Well, after only two weeks, yep two weeks, I am already scheduled to start getting the injections of saline. I hear that hurts. Like this whole thing doesn't hurt? Come on!!!! I am just surprised at myself with how quickly I have come to feel this great. And before I know it, I will have boobs again. Biggin's too!!! That is what Raymond says anyway. I get to make the final decision. If any of you know, 6 years ago I had a breast reduction (4 lbs. removed). I am not into the big boobs thing. My dr was examining my incisions and said that I am going to heal perfectly. He even said that my tan line shows how perfectly set my breast are going to be. I first replied with "I still have a tan line??" I supposed that's a good thing. But there are special people that have special bras and camis that are made special for my body and procedure. I have a camisole that was covered by insurance. It is the same material that a baby's onies are made of. So soft. Well, today I am getting a few bras that are silky soft made specifically for me. They have these forms that can be tucked into the bra to make the look of breasts. It's so great that they have this option. And it's covered by insurance. They even come in several colors. Nice, huh? This is comforting. I just don't know if I am ready to wear REMOVABLE boobies....we'll see. EVERYONE wants to help and has. It's awesome. Anyway, moving along, slowly but surely. Maybe I'll take a picture or two and post them for you to see, promising nothing revealing...too bad....

Here we go......

Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Here we go.....
I am so excited with how I feel. I really haven't had to take my pain meds as often. It's awesome!! I still take it at night......
My Aunt (my mom's sister) had surgery last week, ten years ago she had a single mastectomy on her left side and had an implant put in. Well, it ruptured. So she had it fix last week and then had a lift on her right side to match it. She said she is in the worst pain she has ever had with all her surgeries. I hope she recovers like I have. My Aunt (my dad's sister) had surgery last week too. She has been suffering from her cycle for years and years and now has come to grips that something can be done. Well, she had surgery to have an ablasion and cleaning out of endometriosis and then had some fatty cysts removed from her stomach that were attached to her uterus. She too said she was in serious pain. I hope she heals fast too. I really feel blessed to have Raymond here to take care of me. My mom was here for the first week too. Awesome, my mom is awesome!! The girls have been fantastic!! I lovee my girls. They are the best!! I feel like my spirits are up today.....we'll see how the rest of the week goes! Happy Birthday to Raymond today! He's 35!! OLD!!!!

Week 2 No Bull....

Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Week 2 No Bull....
Wow....it is a day before two weeks and I FINAALLLY got the drain tubes out. I know that is gross to some and it was gross to me, but I have to tell you. As he was taking them out today, he says "on the count of three, take a deep breath, 1,2," and as he's counting he already started pulling I swear! I could feel that thing move from inside my chest. It had to be wrapped around my lungs, or my heart. Dang!!! It was weird. Raymond said the drain tubes were both about 12" long that he pulled out. That's sounds funny huh??? Out of my side!!! GROSS!!! I feel better though. Those things were stupid!! Anyway, went to my surgeon today and he gave me the report from pathology. No CANCER LEFT!! Yahoo!! It's weird to say that. I can't believe I had cancer to begin with. It's nice to know that I don't need chemo, like some that have to suffer through that. I feel for them. I don't need radiation. I am so blessed, it's awesome. I really have great Dr's too! Thank Heavens they chose this career to save me!! Love you guys! Muah!
Doin' good!